I will never be able to forgive myself.........

As I drank deep from the chalice of fate I tasted only sorrow and doom.

This world, your world was never mine...for I have only ever been a stranger in it.

Oh the horror of a child laying awake each night begging god for the mercy of death....

The thought of you suffering....hurts me more then any blade of this world.

My pain is written within my eyes, but most people can't stand to look upon my face....

Everyone you meet is just another face that you'll have to say goodbye to one day....

From what dark dreams do the lost awake only to find the nightmare a reality....

Its been eleven years since I've looked upon the world with any hope....and after all the years of sorrow I feel aged and broken.

I scream and plea all the time, and its not that no one hears me.....its that they don't care.