It's been years since we first met, and i've loved you ever since. but now that you're finally ready to love me back, all i wanna do is push you away. you missed your shot. everything's changed.

I know that i was selfish and i hurt you. just turn away and leave me here all alone.
your pain is not worth my sanity.

*and it's when i push you away that i need you the most*

Don't just think you can walk back into my life and sweep me off my feet all over again. it's been too long. it's o.v.e.r.

Take back all this pain you gave me. im not gunna put up with it anymore. im done with you.

And it's those four fatal words that i must whisper to you now.
*we need to talk.*

*fake smiles and pointless conversation; it's all just a waste of time to me.*

Sometimes i wonder what ever happened between us
and then i remember: *nothing*

Get the F*U*C*K out of my life.
im sorry but i can't do this anymore..

I have no clue how i messed this up so bad. i've created the most *beautiful disaster*.