I guess this is the end
since you were my beginning.

I'm toxicated by your precious touch
I'm poisoned by your gentle words
I'm addicted to your bitter kiss

I guess you are my sweetest drug
the one I can't seem to let go of
but I can't hold on either.

I go through every single day
hoping there will finally come and end
to this deadly love between us.

I'm just afraid
that i'll never find a way to let you go
and that i'll always be in love with you
and that you'll soon find a way to let me go
and that you'll soon fall out of love with me.

I didn't just lose my boy
I lost the bestest friend I've ever had
and you just can't imagine how that feels like.

What I hate the most
is knowing you're trully ' it ' for me
and that you're absolutely the opposite of an assh*le
Oow.. how I wish you were an assh*le
then I would have a reason to forget all about you
but now
I don't.

I'm starting to blame myself
for all those things you're responsable of
I'm starting to blame myself
for all the things that went wrong
I'm starting to blame myself
for being the way I am
for being me.

I wish I could cry my pain away
cause if that were the case
I would be the happiest girl on earth.

I blame myself for so many things
but I blame myself the most
for letting go of your hand and for walking away
when I still had the chance to grab it tight
and never let it go.

I want you so badly ;
and I hate the fact that
'having you' isn't that great at all
and that I will feel just as miserable
when I have you
than when I don't.