I'm starting to blame myself
for all those things you're responsable of
I'm starting to blame myself
for all the things that went wrong
I'm starting to blame myself
for being the way I am
for being me.

What I hate the most
is knowing you're trully ' it ' for me
and that you're absolutely the opposite of an assh*le
Oow.. how I wish you were an assh*le
then I would have a reason to forget all about you
but now
I don't.

I didn't just lose my boy
I lost the bestest friend I've ever had
and you just can't imagine how that feels like.

I'm just afraid
that i'll never find a way to let you go
and that i'll always be in love with you
and that you'll soon find a way to let me go
and that you'll soon fall out of love with me.

I go through every single day
hoping there will finally come and end
to this deadly love between us.

I'm toxicated by your precious touch
I'm poisoned by your gentle words
I'm addicted to your bitter kiss

I guess you are my sweetest drug
the one I can't seem to let go of
but I can't hold on either.

I guess this is the end
since you were my beginning.

I heard our song on the radio
like five times today
It's like it's God's intention
to make me feel as bad as possible.

The history we share together
is just impossible to errase
I will never forget
that spark between us
that unconsciously grewed into
this overwelming love

If only my friends could help me
the way I try to help them when they feel low

If only they would realize
how much I need them right now

If only
they did
But they just don't.