Crappy New Year!

Whats the point of being alive if it hurts so much to live?
Whats the point of trying to love it only hurts to give?

Each night I go to bed hoping that I dont wake up,
Every morning I wake up wishing that that was the last time I open my eyes.

Tears leak from my eyes
When I smile its just a disguise

Things change
People move on...
...
So why can't I?

Lifes a game and I dont understand the rules

Not all scars show
Not all wounds heal
You cant always see
The pain that I feel

In pain...
Hurting....
There is no cure
Bleeding...
Crying...
Since you walked out the door

Never let go if you still want to try
Never wipe you're eyes if they still want to cry
Never settle for no answer if you want to know
Never say you are over them if you cant let go

Sitting on my bed crying
I thought....
Why am I even bothering?