When are the cuts going to be deep enough to kill the pain i hold inside?

When will people begin to understand whats hiding behind the "im fine"?

only when vision turns red will the cut be deep enough and the people might understand

Love hurts and so does Hate...

so what is left for me to feel?

death?

Dear World,

you got your wish.

Im Saying goodbye.

Love,

the one No one Cares About.

People see you hiding in the corner and Dont Care
People hear you crying in the corner and dont care
People see your wrists and Dont Care
Your Gone no one cares
you sit there and watch as you cry silently

So what am i supposed to do when do when im home with family and "happy" yet being home makes me feel home sick?

A house full of people; laughing in every room; smiles on every face; but there you sit... alone, crying, sobbing, wiping the tears from your eyes, and feeling so alone.

the best part is ... no one notices.

You do the work they get the credit
you make a mistake that is your last one to make
you say your sorry and your ignored
you cut and no one sees
you bleed no one cleans
you die .... why should anyone care now?

Silence in a room; you leave the silence goes away;
your crying in a room alone; someone comes in you stop;
they say they must have gone to the wrong room and leaves; you cry again you cant stop; your arms begin to cry red you become silent

The house is nice, the food is nice, my things are nice, but having no one to love you makes everything else seem like nothing...

Im fine.
im fine.
im fine.
im fine.
im fine.
im fine... maybe one of these times i will actually mean it
im fine.
im fine. im fine. im fine. im fine. im fine. im fine.

... just not yet