It could be the last time I ever see you... So I'm gonna laugh a little harder, live a little better, and love a little more. You're worth it...

Sometimes .. i wonder if im just being stubborn and trying to make this work...

and then all my those times with you come rushing back.. and i realize.. you cant make love work... it just does

You're the only reason i ever feel alive...
you're the reason i feel okay when everything isn't okay.

I put it all on you.. all my loneliness and hope and need for something more... it's all on you...
sometimes my "friends" get to me and tell me stupid things...
but you keep reminding me that you're always there... and that you love me

I want to let go...
I want to say goodbye..
But everytime I try...
I can't...

And we'll never get the chance to really be together will we?

...I love you

Does it really matter what happens? (yes)
I'll live. (unwillingly)
I'll laugh (sadly)
and I'll smile (fakely)
See? I'll be fine. (I'll shatter)

Let's pretend for a moment I really am what everyone thinks I am...
Strong, beautiful, smart, a good person.

How can I be all that when I want to breakdown in front of everyone and show them how truly weak, ugly, and stupid I am?

Forget you..
You say you're my friend..
Friends are there for each other..
It seems all that I am is there for you..
There is no shoulder from you.

I love life so much...
I love friends too...
They talk to you about everything cheer you up..
Then they get a boyfriend...
And hardly speak to you at all..
Of course when the boy is gone...
They turn to you again..
I love you all so much </3