&&my world moves in a blur when your not there to make things clearer

I dont turn off sad songs...
I dont turn off our songs...
I can't.
I'd feel like I was betraying all the good memories of us,
lies, though they may have been...

I would have given you anything and you didn't even care....

I worked so hard to be openw ith you, but you never appretiated it...

Sometimes when I'm alone, I pretend you there,
I hold my own hand, trace patterns like you used to
but still i just feel all themore helpless...

I can look,
and yeah thats fun...
but it's strange...
i really dont want to touch unless im loking at you...

My mind has already moved on

my heart however is still picking up the pieces...

&&Somehow,
as much as it is killing me
I just can't bear to
put your picture away,
hide your flowers
or turn off
the songs that remind me
of you...

It amazes me that I was even able to piece my heart together enough for you to shatter it again...

You give me something to sleep to at night