Lately it feels like yur fading into a memory .

I remember laying in my bed, sad and alone. waiting for your name to come up on my phone. and now we're just friends, even if i pretend.. this empty space wont be filled again.

I wanna lay on my bed and put the musick on blast; erase everything from my mind, the future .. the past. forget all the memories, the tears on my face. All I have now is this sad empty space

I wanted yuu to be there when I fall, stand by my side through it all. i wanted yuu to wipe the tears I cried, to always just be by my side.. I didn't wanna end up as "friends" .. was that to hard to understand?

Maybe somewhere within the depts of my heart ... i really believed that yuu would have kept trying. maybe somewhere deep down, i didn't want to accept that yur feelings had changed...

Can I put my headphones on and make believe, that everything's fine and not incomplete? Can I turn the music on high and try with all my might .. to not cry in the darkness by myself tonight?

Afterall, i'm just a girl with too many "girl" emotions, so even though i'm asking my heart not too... i cant help but close my eyes and feel the water run down my cheeks.

I remember hearing your heartbeat as my head laid on yur chest, how our nose brushed against one another as our lips met. baby i remember the look in yur eyes when you told me you loved me ..

why did everything have to change?

I miss the way we use to be, the way yuu use to only love me. you were my company when I was alone But now its different, its incomplete. Baby yuu use to sweep me off my feet ..

I just wanted something that made me different from them.. Made me more than a friend, specialer than an old girlfriend. I let yuu in where noone else has ever been .. Yet im still fighting to get yur heart to let me in?