It hurts so bad, just the thought of you. To think...
**Ryan...

I close my eyes
And pretend I'm like a child all over again...

I take this razor
That's controlled my life for so long...

Perfection is a word unknown to me
Something that is so expected to be...

As I sit behind closed doors I wonder why I do...
When I know of all the pain it brings...

You can read me like a book
Each time you dare to look...

I love your touch, my very best friend
You produce a feeling I wish would never end...

Cast away from the human eye
Left to rot away and die...

Waking up with tears in my eyes
In a world I hate and despise...

Dear Mom, I'm really sorry about all this.
Sorry I couldn't give you one last kiss...

As I lay in bed alone I hear your breath
and feel the blood from your sickle dripping on my...

Your lies are too clear
I say this with a last tear...