The truth would hurt more than the lies. So I choose to lie to you, so you don't worry...

Oops, I wore a short sleeve shirt
oops, I forgot to eat
oops, I i didn't wear make up to cover my tears
oops, I never left my room
oops, I forgot to draw a smile on my face

And you really think these are all mistakes?

You can't leave me
seem to play ping pong with my heart
tearing and mending then breaking apart
You want me
then you don't
you love me
then you wont
what's the final answer.

I swear, you call me an attention wh-re because i cry over getting molested?
Yet you cry over a broken nail, if you knew the pain i really feel, I swear to g-d, you'd still not feel a thing. Because you've never been hurt.

No one knows the real me
No one knows what I'm thinking
No one understands me
No one know how I really feel
No one knows what I'm like under this mask
No one cares that they hurt me...

Everyone keeps asking me if i'm okay..
what the hell do they want me to say?
no.. i'm not okay. and then what? so i
just smile and say i'm fine .. even tho
i'm really dying inside </3

I cut my wrists, hoping maybe someone will see them...
I fake a smile, wishing someone would tell me I know you fake it.
I even starve waiting for someone to ask why are you not hungry?
I wish someone would just ask!

He told me he loves me... but the next day he says he doesn't want me? Now he won't even talk to me, he won't even see me.... WE were best friends before...

People say there is a reason for everything: every loss, every joyful moment. everything.. but what is it. because I can't find it in my <3 to believe so.

As she looks in the mirror
blood streaming down her wrists
she thinks to herself
is this what they wanted
and right before she drops to the floor she whispers
"I hope your happy now"

--unknown