Though,
I go nights sleepless,
And I feel completely useless,

To smoke some special drug, is all that it takes,
To laugh until you cry,
& Too sleep the night away.

I want too see you hurt the way i'm hurting,
Cry the way I do,
Scream the way I do,
Feel useless the way I do,
Get pushed around and abused Everyday..
The way I do.
I hate you,
You will never understand.
And it will never be okay.

Nothing compares too you.

I just wish you knew,
about the things going through my head.
I just wish you knew,
about the pain I feel each day.
I can't even sleep,
I just lay in my bed.
and stare at the ceiling,
wishing things were okay.

I'll never be the same again.
because I fell,
And you didn't catch me.
I hit the ground,
Now the damage will be there forever.

Knee to knee,
Chest too chest,
I can hear your breath,
It makes me weak,
and I love you more than you'll ever know,
But every time I see you with her,
It makes my heart sink low..

Razor blades & Handguns.

You introduced me too hell.

You're all so proud of me. Because I'm getting better & happier.
When the truth is,
I'm just getting better at acting.

You never know what somebody can become,
You never know what they're going to be.
But what you became,
Was the one thing that crushed me.