And I'll smile and tell you that everything is fine. In all honesty though; I'm hopeing you wont believe the lie...

For the first time in my life I didn't want to wake up... because in my dreams everything was okay... you didn't hate me... you still said you loved me..

And I'm sorry that I even bothered to care. I'm sorry that I was always there. I'm sorry for falling head over heals. I'm sorry that I'm in love with you...

I can't move on because I'm stuck in a fantasy that's never going to be a reality...

My heart is not a puzzle... you don't get to take it apart and watch me struggle to put it back together...

And if I fall again, please dont make me regret it. I'm tired of hurting; I want to smile. So if this is gonna happen, don't let me be wrong all over again...