It took forever to convince my self I was over you. That I was better off without you. And now here you are in front of me; standing there in the casual way that you do and suddenly I am not so sure I can really ever be convinced.

If I sit here and act like nothing is wrong, maybe I can lie to myself and pretend it's all okay. Maybe I can act like you never walked away.

You say that you care; funny how you're never there. Funnier still how I still dont seem to mind...

Think I'm making a big deal out of nothing? Try feeling exactly what I feel for you and not being able to do anything about it... then you can tell me it doesn't hurt.

I'm not sorry that I fell in love with you... I am sorry that I believed you fell too

And I'll smile and tell you that everything is fine. In all honesty though; I'm hopeing you wont believe the lie...

For the first time in my life I didn't want to wake up... because in my dreams everything was okay... you didn't hate me... you still said you loved me..

And I'm sorry that I even bothered to care. I'm sorry that I was always there. I'm sorry for falling head over heals. I'm sorry that I'm in love with you...

I can't move on because I'm stuck in a fantasy that's never going to be a reality...

My heart is not a puzzle... you don't get to take it apart and watch me struggle to put it back together...