For the first time in my life I didn't want to wake up... because in my dreams everything was okay... you didn't hate me... you still said you loved me..

And I'll smile and tell you that everything is fine. In all honesty though; I'm hopeing you wont believe the lie...

I'm not sorry that I fell in love with you... I am sorry that I believed you fell too

Think I'm making a big deal out of nothing? Try feeling exactly what I feel for you and not being able to do anything about it... then you can tell me it doesn't hurt.

You say that you care; funny how you're never there. Funnier still how I still dont seem to mind...

If I sit here and act like nothing is wrong, maybe I can lie to myself and pretend it's all okay. Maybe I can act like you never walked away.

How could something so right, turn out so wrong?

All the smiles; all the laughs; all the silly texts. All the hugs; all the kisses; all the cheesy movies. Late night phone calls; sunset walks; holding hands; all the talk. Was all that a lie too? Just like your "I love you"?

Behind my smile, is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart. Look closely at me, and you will see, the girl I am.. Isn't me

Next time you feel the need to tell me you care, don't waste your breath on a pointless lie...