Why did you have to pretend i was someone else in order to hold me?

I never knew it was possible to leave school with so many regrets...

Some times I wish I was deaf..to my own mind...

Wings of Crushed Velvet,
I can feel the wind...
but I cannot fly

The thin red lines that marr my skin
They're signs of the battle I fight within.

But if I were to trip in traffic
I wouldnt try to get back up...

I see you laugh when you wanna cry
Darlin, you live but i know you wanna die...

The Ugly: Autobiography
By: Me

Sometimes I just have to laugh at myself and say "I hate myself."

I don't wanna go through that ever again.
I dont want someone to pretend to be a decent person
I don't want to think I love them
And then watch them rip me to shreds again.
I can't do it twice.