For some reason I let you back in,
and again me heart you did win...

Understand,
that I love you with all of my heart...

I sit, cut and watch my blood run,
in the beginning it was all just for fun...

You know it's that special time of year,
when jingle bells you start to hear...

You've caused so much pain deep within my heart,
and now it's time for my fresh new start...

I hate you,
but I love you...

What changed for you to treat me this way?
Sometimes the pain makes it hard to stay...

Our time together made life worth wild,
when I was with you I was free as a child...

~*~ This poem is dedicated to my BESTEST FRIEND...
I've known you now for many years...

I wish you knew,
my feelings for you...

I fell in love with a boy,
who treated me like I was his toy...

Finally now the truth is out,
from my mind removed is all doubt...