I need to take control, because I'm not here...
Jerking around to an empty song with no sound...

A tiny little bundle, sleeps gently in my arms
Sheltered from the real world, sheltered from all...

I don't feel alive anymore
Hurting people more and more...

If we are in dystopia
Opposite of utopia...

Didn't need to make myself sick this time
He did it for me, I didnt need to get away...

Icicles form on the frozen breath from my lips
Clouds form above in the midnight sky...

Hurt me, kill me, beat me up to relieve your pain
You know I deserve it, hit me over and over again...

Watching myself as I eat
Staring down at my two feet...

I'm searching for someone, who can love me for who...
Not able to be pushed down by others anymore...

Don't lie, I am overweight, Humongous
I hate myself more, I don't want to eat please...

They watch me all the time, They follow me around
Criticizing me all the time, everyone is staring...

On the horizon, Dark clouds are beginning to form
Shadows growing in the bleack pit of my mind...