Its horrid when someone you think is your friend is so blind that they cannot see how much pain you're in.....But its worse when they know and ignore it.

The only reason I havent killed myself is because of you....Im not giving you the pleasure of spitting on my grave.

This evening when the moon is shining,
I shall wish upon a star, so bright.
Please let me have my greatest desire,
Allow me to stop breathing and die tonight...

Im sorry it has to be this way,
Im sorry my life has gone so fast.
Im sorry but I cant take things any more,
Im sorry, tonight is my last.

Locked in a life of torture,
Someones thrown away the key.
I cant get out, I cant escape,
Im sick of being me....

Im sorry I ever let you know the truth,
I guess it just showed in how I behaved.....
I didnt want you to see that all I am,
Is a desperate little girl wanting to be saved......

Yeah I lied...
But really I tried....
I just need more pain...
To keep me satisfied...

Your words stab me,
Like a knife in the heart.
They sting like hell,
Then tear me apart....

Joke and laugh, and smile every day,
Dont let them see that you're not ok.
For if you hide and dont let them know,
They wont be trying to stop you, when you decide to go.

Once again I take the knife,
Try to stop the hurt try to quit my life.
Once again I try to succeed,
And pray my wrists shall bleed and bleed.
That the blood shall drain away from me,
And let my tortured soul be free.