Im not scared of being alone
its what i might do to myself
that scares me

A little girl asked me
whats that on your arm
i had no choice then to tell her the truth
i cut myself because i ease the pain i feel inside
that little girl has never been the same

I've gotten so far with my cutting its not even controlable
its not even to ease pain but
its more like an addiction to pain now

The way you look at me
I know what your thinking
The words you say
I know you care
The way you laugh
I know your truly happy
Now if you only knew about me. . .

The hardest thing is watching you walk away from me, everyday and you not knowing how I feel......

You knew what was going on
You knew i was hurting
You knew i was cutting
You knew i was crying
YOU KNEW!
So why didnt you Care?

>To:MyMom

Please dont ask to be strong today
This is my weakest hour
My weakest thought
I am leaving this dreadful life

I'm crying- please help
I'm cutting- please help
I'm not eating- please help

See i did ask for help you just didn't see it

My body shaking
my hands moving
my head spinning
the urge to cut has come over me
and is uncontrolable

Hiden thoughts
Hiden emotions
Tearing her apart......