Once his gone he wont be back so dont take forgranted what you have

Looking for a reason
Just to stay here today
Looking for a way
Just to make it thru the day

>You have to hit rock bottom before you can ever be on top

The pain of my innocence leaveing me when he was raping me was just to much to bare...
I DIED RIGHT THERE...........

>Just another lost soul wondering the earth, waiting for someone to find me

The blood flowing down my vains,
oh it satisfies me
but only for a little bit
only for awhile
then i cut again
and i shall never get better.....

To the world i appear the happiest person on earth and i should have no reason to be sad b/c of how well of i am.....
But then again the world doesnt know shit and money cant buy everything....

I smile so the world doesnt know
i laugh so the world doesnt know
i actually appear HAPPY
But then again the world doesn't know

Threw suffering
i know your weak
dont give up
dont give in
dont satisfie it
dont let it win

...Whatever it might mean to you...
Mines the 3 guys i got raped by....

I smile to hide the real me...
Afraid if they knew the real me they wouldnt comprehend...