To the world i appear the happiest person on earth and i should have no reason to be sad b/c of how well of i am.....
But then again the world doesnt know shit and money cant buy everything....

I smile so the world doesnt know
i laugh so the world doesnt know
i actually appear HAPPY
But then again the world doesn't know

Threw suffering
i know your weak
dont give up
dont give in
dont satisfie it
dont let it win

...Whatever it might mean to you...
Mines the 3 guys i got raped by....

I smile to hide the real me...
Afraid if they knew the real me they wouldnt comprehend...

Raped once
raped twice
raped once again
whats the diffrence?
they stole my soul the 1st time
they stole my inocence
they stole everything i believed in

This feeling comes over
im traped again
forced to feel this way
to act the way i do
to once more be so confused
and realieve it all by cutting or
atempt suicide again

Just cause i dont cut anymore doesnt mean i cant feel what i went thru
Feel the pain
Feel it go away
Feel the blade against my skin taking everything away..........

What do you do when you have created the one you never wanted to be? And they just wont leave you alone.

She wont go away
She can't go away
Shes got to much to fight for
Shes got to much to lose
If she was to go away today..........

My heart will bleed tonight
my soul will leave tonight
my lips will never feel your sweet kiss again
my body will feel the cold of the lonely world
im sorry i know you tried..........