Past the lie??

ok, I have a theory on all this depression lark.. It's a bit "out there" but it's the strange way in which i think so I'd be grateful for any thoughts anyone might have on this..
The way I see it, we are already dead, we are slaves to the demure of society and forced to conform to things which we never agreed to. Even emotions are controlled, for instance, hiding sadness when you should be crying, being friendly when rage is consuming you. Why is this? because we are dead.. dead to emotions, others, everything. The definition of being "alive" is only so because this is what we have made it. Us with our insignificant language and meaningless words which only appear to have meaning because we have made created them in this way. But what do they mean to someone who speaks another language? Nothing.
Maybe this doesnt apply to others but I feel that I am already dead. My existence on this earth is not perminant or certain. I do not wish to be labelled with the names I have been given. My psychiatrist (omg i cnt spell) has told me that this is my subconscious protection method, i.e. my mind is telling me Im dead so that i do not open my mind enough for the empty pain to engulf me.. but I dont know..
He might be right but I cant help but feel that he is overlooking something, or seeing past the lie which i am seeing through. Any thoughts on this??
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I feel the same way. Like my body is only a shell and the "emotions" that corse through me are just illusions... I agree. We are all dead in a lie called "life". Our communiction between one another is nothing because it either means nothing or will be forgotten, like is was nothing. Everything that is, is really nothing at all.

"my mind is telling me I'm dead so that i do not open my mind enough for the empty pain to engulf me"

That makes sense. I'd listen to the guy. It sounds like how I was feeling for awhile. Ah, adolescene... I love every bit of it, but I never would want to do it again. You need to get yourself a support system of positive-minded people who will not judge you for your current depressive thoughts & moods. and like bob so eloquently put it, TEAR DOWN THOSE BARRIERS!!

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I hate you Bob.

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LMFAO ^^^^^^ that comment made me laugh for about 10 mins!!!!
eclipse u rock my socks

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Bob,
Thankyou for your words of advice (knowledge???) on this matter. My only problem with what you have said is that it is all to easy to believe yourself to be forgotten.. i think that is what Garrett was getting at. If you spend long enough being convinced/convincing yourself that you are insufficient for this "life" you, in turn, come to believe this as what stands for the Truth. Unfortunately I am aware as much as you are I'm sure, that lies are more real to many of us than reality could ever claim to be, and I believe here is where my dilemma lies.
Also, just to put things straight (I read this through again and found it had a sort of double meaning)when I say the word dead, I do not mean it in the literal sense. It is purely the most accurate word to describe the numb emptiness which creeps through every part of me. By posting this I am simply trying to understand myself a little more by asking those who can view the situation from the outside. Thanks to those who have left kind and reassuring words, it is very much appreciated,
xXxForesakenxXx

i totally agree