contest!!! ends... nov 30th!!

hey heres how it works!
u enter a poem by november 30th and ill judge them..
the rules..

must be ur own work
must be 10+ lines
must be in my nov 30th
can only sumit 2 poems but can only win once!
no slang if used will be disquaified!

not judged baced on rhyme my personal preferance
it will be judged on fluincy personality and emotion

thank you and good luck!
thanks

1st place... 4 comments and on favorits list

2nd place... 3 comment and on favorits list

3rd place... 2 comments

4th place... 1 comment!!

Prince of Heartaches
by â—Š Atomic â—Š

How often do you dream,
A prince charming of your own.
One who keeps you close to heart,
So you'll never feel alone?

The perfect man from the books,
A shining armor and white horse too.
One who never loved before,
Until the day he met you.

A touch from him made you shiver,
Kissing him made you swoon.
Together your hearts unite,
Under the full yellow moon.

With him by your side,
You rode off into the sunset.
Dreaming of a happy ending,
To live life with no regrets.

How often do you wake up,
Realization hits you fast.
True love doesn't have an ending,
Because it was meant to last.

What happened to those princes,
From movies and fairy tales.
Do they not exists at all,
Or have they rung their wedding bells?

Where is your prince charming?
He's no where to be found.
Has he gotten lost on the way here,
Has he lost his golden crown?

You found yours long ago,
But he broke your fragile heart.
He decolorized it,
To the deepest blackest dark.

His reasons for betrayal,
Shall remain forever unknown.
But I think you know it in your soul,
He did it to save his own.

( )_( )
(='.'=)
(")-(") Arrivederci!©

What Leads To The Road Ahead? By: ItalianStallion

I asked myself as I went to bed
What leads to the road ahead?
I thought all night long
Even listened to a few songs

Days came
Days went
So I thought I better get some sleep
While I was a sleep I had a dream
It gave me a major leap
With this question that lingered in my head

I thought all night
Even listened to a few songs
Then it came to me
There is no answer

I was up for weeks
Lost lots of sleep
But in the end
I knew the answer to the question that lingered in my head

If I Give Myself To You By: ItalianStallion

If I give myself to you
will you cherish what I say and do
will you suffer my tears
and all my darkest moods
can I trust you to be true
If I give myself to you

If I lay my body in your bed
will you promise me you'll never forget
when the bed is broken
and the words have all been said
will you love through and through
If I give myself to you

If I show you all of me
will you turn away
If you see me start to bleed
theres nothing in this world
that I would rather be
than naked here before you

If I leave my heart in your hands
will you let me stand where I will stand
will I lose my power
when I fall to love some girl
like so many of us do
If I give myself to you

If I show you all of me
will you turn away
If you see me start to bleed
theres nothing in this world
that I would rather be
than naked here before you

If I leave my heart in your hands
will you let me stand where I will stand
will you feel the power
will you love me as I am
will you feel the way I do
If I give myself to you

~This is actually a song I wrote~

ENOUGH

Enough is enough
I won't take any more
you don't want a wife
you want a whore
go right ahead
do as you please
don't be surprised
when I ask you to leave
I've forgiven you before
this time I refuse
my heart's grown weary
of being abused
I won't live my life
watching your every move
I'd rather be alone
than worry about you
I truly pray you find
whatever it is you seek
now I bid you good-bye
and shake the dust from my feet.

WANTING YOU AGAIN

Do you know
the longing I feel
seeing you
yet forbidden
to touch your dark hair
or taste your delicious kiss
I am overwhelmed
with desire
from the very sight of you
your imminent presence
inflames me
taking me back
to the last time
in your arms
the hours we shared together
in infinite amorous pleasure
the ecstasy of it all
feeling your skin
on my own
your tongue
playing music
on my soul
our bodies together as one
never wanting it to end
but knowing too soon
it would come to a close
and I'd be right here
wanting you again.

The Neon Sign That Burns Across My Forehead.

My rampant ways will try to cover these mistakes,
but neon confessions seep through the blacks and greys.
And if a thousand hoodies can't hide my broken face tonight,
well, you'll be seeing it on those brightened yellow wanted signs.

Setting out into the darkness, with no distinguishing factors
except for my bright and flashing forehead that they're after.
They know these words by heart, can be read from miles away..
I'm starting to think I'd be safer in the middle of the day.

But screw my nonchalant ways, I'm making myself known.
Running through empty parks has become my home.
They'll trail me with the neon fluids I leave behind,
I'll make it so damn easy for them to find.

And if I've made it so obvious what I've set out to do,
I hope this burning cursive spits holes right through you.
Authority can suck on the poison racing through my veins,
press their fangs into death, till their eyes bleed out hot pink brains.

Inspired By The Mysterious Shadows On My Wall

So, I was walking down this really dark street one day,
with the sh#ttiest music, but my head was banging away.
I almost didn't notice the sword at my throat..
one more step and that purple skeleton would've cut me open.

Well it must have been my lucky 364th second,
because the notorious pink shark came and saved me from the weapon
he tore at the flesh of the raw and bare skeleton..
and if you didn't see the irony in that, therapy is just a suggestion.

As I slide past the stench of burning pink shark,
I follow some suicidal hooker into the dark.
She pulls out a leather whip with the pointiest tip,
and I made the mistake of running from the only action I've seen in a bit.

As I was frantically stumbling down neon hills,
my foot landed on something entirely unreal;
a man laying down on his back, looking at the stars..
I proclaimed, "what a crazy mother f#cker you are."

I continue on my parade with flamingos not far behind.
Oh, how their pink wings seemed so happy to be in flight.
They give me a slight smile, but quickly turn away.
I guess they didn't want to see me running into the wall that just happened to be in my way *shrugs*

I quickly recover from a short concussion break,
There seems to be at least on of those on every trip I make.
The white dog with starry eyes motions for me to come here,
then sticks a wet Willy right in my ear.

He must think he's so clever.

I shove past him and stumble my way up the stairs,
thinking my journey would end right then and there.
Oh boy how I was wrong, I must not have seen
the stoned monkey on my bedroom wall staring back at me.

As i walked in the room
laying on her bed
completely still, no longer alive
i could feel the stillness
right when i walked in
screaming in the soul
this cant be happening
but knowing it was true
having to say goodbye
completely still, no longer alive

now flying from above
she is watching down on me
the only way she could

Wrote this one just now...

"In the Shade of Her Image"

Enclosed in my ashes
I stand with no soul.
A heart without color
shall never be whole.

Darkened beneath me
the ground, as the sky.
Layer upon layer.
Lie upon lie.

My grieved heart does wilt.
"Her memory has gone"
Myself and the truth
suppressed thus as one.

In the Shade of her image
in the twilight of love,
my sanity, bewinged,
roams astray, far above.

The hatred within,
cursed with its touch.
My will, long since weakened,
withstood not so much.

The remains of myself
put to the test.
The blade in her body
forever shall rest.

Another one I just finished

"The Wind that tell"

Last spring the wind did lightly blow
beneath horizons left aglow,
A silent breath out of the east
brought me tidings ere it ceased.

Through the leaves it told the tale
of things that are that soon shall fail.
"Thy home shall not forever last"
Said it to me before it passed.

T`was so I saw the end of such
as I have come to treasure much,
by waning moon and rising sun
it dawned on me what must be done

I had to leave, for loth I was
to witness such a bitter loss,
and with the roaming birds above
did I too leave that which I love

I wandered far, and found the sea,
as birds of passage beckoned me.
and by the beach was laid a boat,
by some strange chance there left afloat.

I entered it, though torn in two
I set my sail, turned `round, and threw
my final glance upon the coast
that ever I did treasure most.

Then I fell into a dream,
in which I saw a single gleam,
that clearly shone upon a shore
and then I was asleep no more.

Before me was a land, and lo!
upon it wandered to and fro,
a blear-eyed man, bent with time,
the wisdom in his eyes, sublime.

I set my boat ashore, and said,
"Hello, old man", he raised his head,
and turned around and spoke to me,
"How blind of you to cross the sea"

Enlighted by the dawning sky
his tired eyes caught mine, and I,
I saw his fate, alike to mine
and felt our very souls entwine.

For within this man was laid a truth
that he too learned through flaws of youth,
and thus could teach to me this day,
when I did sail my boat astray.

"Do not wilt when life does change,
and see what's fair 'tween known and strange.
Do never take too lightly on
such as grows when all has gone."

Thus having spoke, the old man sighed,
and with the turning of the tide,
Within my boat he set his feet,
to sail, and I felt bittersweet.

For though the truth I learned was great,
I grieved to know my lonely fate
Bound to stray upon this shore,
to see my homeland nevermore.

Bulldozed Regrets - You Knew You Were Wrong

When the last drop fell
From the many-rained sky,
And the last tear fell
From your over-cried eyes,
I was still standing there,
Heart pounding too long
Waiting for the moment
You knew that you were wrong.

My mind had crumbled
My body fell, too.
But my soul stayed waiting
Hopelessly for you.
My love was such a burden
Because I knew yours was gone.
Though impossible, I wished
You knew that you were wrong.

I had already waited forever,
But still had eternity to go.
I stood there, looking helpless
And more hopeless than you know.
Yet you looked into my eyes
And saw that my will carried on,
And with the choices that you had made,
You knew that you were wrong.

Foolish

Keep your hand upon the gun
You're the only one
Who can pull this trigger
Now, go figure
That the gun's against your head
Once again it's said
Your only enemy's yourself
You're bad for your own health
Yet you take another breath
One step closer to your death
You say another word
Can you guarantee it's heard
By the others in this "world"
This hell hate has unfurled
So clever with your wit
But I'm so sick of it
Nothing is meaningful that you say
You say it anyway

I want to pull away the gun
Keep you from being another one
Of those fools that throws life away
Suicide is not a word of play
But it's the word of choice for what you do
And what you're doing with me & you.
If you're going to die, do it now
Before I can stop you somehow
You're life is slowly coming to a halt
But it's faster than I can shout
You know I love you, but now I can't see you live
You're only a fool with nothing left to give
You pull the trigger, and hit the floor
Not an angel in my eyes anymore.
I'll rest in peace because you are dead.
Upon your broken body, I lay my head.
Nothing fixed, but something gained
All because of the day it rained.

"Last First Kiss"

Never in my life,
Had I felt as good as this
it was a love short lived,
Which ill forever miss.

For a moment in time
The world had stopped moving
I was caught in the best
What then, was I proving?

It was all so cliche,
How fast he had my heart,
But things dont last forever
How soon, it was torn apart.

I just dont understand what happened
It seemed so perfect, or so I thought,
We kissed that night ,
It just seemed so right,
To me, it really meant a lot.

After that night, I waited so long
To hear his voice once more,
But he avoided me, and forgot I could feel
It was his last walk out of my door.

When we used to hang out,
Hed tell me how shy I would be
And to just say what I was feeling inside
But its not me, its him
That needs to grow up and see
That his silence just makes me cry

I just want him to say, why he left me this way
Without a single word of goodbye
His truthful words would have caused hurt feelings
But his silence hurts more than a lie.

I just long for the day to see him again
To show him the hurt hes endured to my soul
To make him realize, what hes done to my heart
The piece ill never get back, which he stole.

When I see him around I Hope he realizes
He lost the best thing he could have had,
But I want him so much,
despite how he broke my heart,
for eternity, ill forever be sad.

But I wont say a word
I will just let him slip away
What I thought I had, I have lost
Hes gone from my life,
Its something Ill forever miss
Ill always remember him.
And our Last, first kiss.

" Reckless Emotion "

At the edge with no grasp,
Its inevitable Ill fall
Deeper emotionally,
Then ever thought at all.

Ive crashed into my thoughts, defenseless against pain I cannot prevent.
You're killing me softly
With feelings that Ive always meant

I have a reckless emotion
But you intimidate my actions
A captivating feeling,
Nothing, but mere distractions.

My voice is broken,
As words seem impossible to say,
Your enticing glances
Are what makes a better day.

It isnt just your stare,
Nor the thought of what love could be,
But the feelings that you make me feel,
Right here right now,
Its just you, being here with me.

Ripped from your side
Moments together
Decided like the Tide

The outside world
Everyone else
Telling us when
We can build our house

Stand tall in front
We should tell them all
Together we want
And we will never fall

Who cares what fools think
Or if they don't like it
It's us and our kids
Under this blanket

Then the rules set in
The courts must begin
We cant do it now
For we would live in sin

God knows were together
Our paths he has planted
He's making us wait
So nothings for granted

This chore we accept and
Walk in his way
But please god please
Marry us one day

submitted by David McIntosh

The Elegy of the Lovers
by HansRik

I cannot say in words how much I've loved
For words help not t'express the lover's wish.
Canst thou not see the pain of being unloved?
Or more the languid dolence we anguish?

Now I have lost yon opportunity,
The fire of love has burned this heart of mine
Crying, waning, yonder atrocities
Committed for love, for this thought of thine.

But I shall make myself an oak that stands
Upon thy doors and howls thy name fore'er.
And nevermore this pain will understand,
The love I have for thee, my dear girl.

The hills that sing and dream about thy love
Think not that they shall be eroded, yea,
The willows chant their elegy forgone,
And rot in fetid, rancid ideals.

And walkest thou in vainest thoughts and lies,
Laughing at the trees and hills that, for you, died.
Waiting for mine heart to expire its last sighs.

How beautiful thou seem'st outside,
The sun is but a phantom by thy side.

But nay!

Thy soul is cruel and cold, like the darkest night.

(C)Copyright 2005
(Hans Rik- nom de plume)

Lies
By Sarah

He broke my heart
I longed to see him
But he never came
I waited and waited
Nothing ever happened
It felt like I cried forever
He used to be The One
Now i just don't know
Is it worth it
All the pain I went through
Or is it just easier
Not to love and not to care
I still wonder what could have happened
If he decided to come back
Would it be the year
He fell in love with me
I'll never find out
If only I saw him
Just seeing his face
One more time
See him smile at me
Hear his voice again
Any word would do
Even if it was goodbye
But no, I didn't even get that
He was gone and never heard from
He promised he would come back
He lied to me
All I wanted was the truth
He built me up
For the biggest fall ever
He doesn't care and never has
I used to believe him
Now I don't know what is
True or if it's always been
Lies

In My Dreams
By Sarah

I fall asleep
I start to dream
My thoughts are deep

I see him there
He walks over to me
He runs his fingers through my hair

He looks into my eyes
I look back into his
My heart flies

He smiles at me
And kisses my cheek
I'm flilled with glee

He takes my hand
We begin to walk
We hear music from a distant band

It's beginning to become light
Our time together is almost over
I'm filled with fright

He smiles and says goodbye
He walks away from me
I begin to cry

Our time together is done
It's over for me
That's is for all the fun

I'm now awake
Tears are rolling down my face
I begin to shake

It's over now
I'll get over this dream
I just don't now how

Good Evening Doctor...
by †Anthony†

Screaming for help,
But no breath to scream.
I'm praying to wake up,
From this hellish nightmare dream.

The calls of the Doctor,
With his torture chair of doom,
Closing in on me,
AS this danger slowly looms.

Running from the pain,
The pain that comes from him.
I don't know where I am,
Am I to sink, Or to swim.

Confusion all around,
Makes me wonder if it's real.
But my doubts are quickly gone,
As my blood he tries to steal.

Cutting me with tools,
That spin with natural ease.
I'm begging for his mercy,
Begging, pleading on my knees.

With the blood in the air from
The slash of his knife,
I woke up in a sweat,
When, in my dream, I lost my life.

The Vile Of My Heart
by †Anthony†

I wait for you to turn around,
A wait that lasts a thousand years.
What keeps you from coming to me?
Could it be your silly fears?

The world around us changes,
As you slowly walk away.
I guess I'm the dumb one,
Who still waits everyday.

I wished to pour my heart,
Into a vile for you to wear.
I did it and it worked,
But you couldn't get it, you weren't there.

I've carried your emotions,
On my back with my own,
But now I have to drop them,
Cause I can't do this all alone.

The times you said you loved me,
Were all just one big lie.
As you keep on walking,
It makes me want to die.

You sent back one of your minions,
To make your exit just complete.
He took the vile of my heart,
And smashed it at my feet.

Home - Confessions of a Broken Heart

I've learned home isn't a building or structure,
Or a place to hang your hat.
It isn't numbers that make up an address,
Or anything to do with a welcome mat.

I've learned home isn't a location,
Or place made to lay your head.
It isn't about a yard or garden,
Or table where bellies are fed.

I've learned home isn't a setting,
Or a beach house on the sand.
It isn't built with money,
Or materials used with laboring hands.

I've learned home is a tender melody,
Played between two hearts.
It happens inexplicably,
From when the music starts.

I've learned home is a place of joy,
Decorated with the finest things in life.
It's there with a smile or goofy grin,
Or tears that fall at hard times and strife.

I've learned home is a place of peace,
With purposeful natural design.
Warming the heart and healing the soul,
From gloomy days when the sun doesn't shine.

I've learned home is a place of love,
With a porch light brightly lit.
A door that opens without effort,
For a key that perfectly fits.

Sadly...

I've learned home is where you are,
But I didn't arrive on time.
No porch light was on to light my way,
And no open door did I find.

I regret not speaking while I had the chance,
The words "I love you" way back when.
But I'm blessed you taught me the meaning of home,
and thankful and ok being your friend.

These are confession of a broken heart.

To Where You Are

I've wanted to run to where you are,
And escape the fear keeping me far.
I've wanted to kiss your beautiful lips,
And feel your face on my fingertips.

I've wanted to take that trip you asked,
And let my trepidation be a thing of the past.
I've wanted love that's healthy and true,
So why in the world didn't I run to you?

I've wanted to dance with you in the rain,
And travel the world from Peru to Spain.
I've wanted to hold you into the night,
So why did I let you out of my sight?

To feel your heartbeat as you're fast asleep,
And pray to God that your soul to keep.
To see your sweet face age over time,
And be the number one of your life.

To see you look on a beautiful sunset,
Would be a gift I'd never forget.
To lay under that palm tree in Bali,
And take a cold ride in a San Francisco Trolley.

For all the times I told you "no",
I'm haunted in my being, my very soul.
So many nights I lie awake,
Holding nothing but a huge heartache.

Are there actions or words to say,
To capture your heart and all of your days?
I guess my chance has come and past,
I just pray the pain won't last.

I know...

I think I'll wait for a falling star,
And wish to go to where you are.

Please Hold Me Tight

Please hold me tight,
Don't ask questions,
Just do what's right.

Please hold me tight,
I'm very scared inside,
And, in depth of fright.

Please hold me tight,
When I feel like hurting myself,
And, cannot see the light.

Please hold me tight,
Tell me you love me,
And, tell me I'll be alright.

Don't Think I'm Not Listening

Having little hope to gain
Feeling very depressed,
Thinking the world is lame.

When feeling this way,
I feel like I need to cut,
My life I only have away.

I need someone to listen, a friend,
Someone they say,
They will be there till the end.

Later I find out,
They aren't,
Which makes me have doubt.

Rejected in many ways,
I feel very hurt,
And, my life is going astray.

I only wanted to find love and peace.
I never wanted to cut,
And, now I feel like I have a disease.

I don't know what wrong with me,
I am doing my best, just like everyone else.
I wish they'd appreciate it, and see....

Nothing I say is good enough
I try to talk to them,
Only if I could just feel a little love.

If only they would care,
Or just even listen,
When I need them to be there.

I don't need to be hurt in many ways,
I don't need to be judged,
From all the hurtful words you say.

I wish you'd realize someday,
That I am doing my best,
And, I'm dreading the day; today.

Again, I feel depressed
Rejected and hurt,
And, I'm doing my best.

I don't want you,
To tell me I'm bossy,
Or what to do.

I want you show me for who I am,
That you love me,
And, not act like you don't give a damn.

I hear every word you say,
So; again, don't think I'm not listening.
It hurts me in everyway.

I cry every night,
I feel insecure,
Needing a night light.

I have been hurt in many ways,
From being molested and raped,
So; please think before what you say.

The man told me I was beautiful,
If only words meant the truth,
Those words hurt and don't sooth.

Now, I know he was only trying to manipulating me,
Scared, afraid, confused, hurt,
Only at age 9, I didn't understand what it could be.

It happened for three years,
That I will have memories of,
Those moments, I cry tears.

I feel very depressed.
Again, don't be mad at me,
I'm doing my best.

If only you could have been there,
If only you could have saw, the pain,
If only you could be there to care.

Now, you know the truth,
That what people say,
Cannot always sooth.

Sometimes people lie,
And, while others hurt,
People just want to die.

I cry myself to sleep,
While feeling depressed,
And, wanting to cut deep.

I don't need to be hurt in many ways,
I don't need to be judged,
From all the hurtful words you say.

I hear every word you say,
So; again, don't think I'm not listening.
It hurts me in everyway.

Next time, mean what you say,
Think before you act,
It can hurt someone is someway.

"Broken Hearts"

You've gone on to someone new.
You've got me feeling down.
Made me want to end my life.
Just to end this frown.

You said you only broke my heart,
But how can that be true?
You said things would get better.
But I'm still in love with you.

You said other people break people's,
Hearts every single day.
And how are you such a horrible person?
By living life this way.

Sadly you didn't break my heart.
You stole it in my sleep.
You still have it to this day.
You're stabbing it softly as i speak

It takes a very special girl,
To make me feel this Weak.
I thought i was stronger then this.
But you've made my heart so meek.

Why is it i pray for death?
How can this even be?
Dear Lord, Please take my life soon,
Living in hell is killing me.

You will never be able to go back,
From all the things you've said.
A cut on my wrist for every lie.
Someday you'll make me dead.

A picture lays on the table
As color begins to fade away
Memories of us are still fresh
As if we just took it today

It seemed like so long ago
When we would sit down and chat
We used to get into so much trouble
We were the happiest little brats

Best friends forever
Together till the end
We were there there for each other
Your sorrows i would mend

We grew up together
Time flew so fast
Despite the changes in surroundings
Our friendship had no contrast

We were joined at the hips
All the people would say
But it broke my heart
To see you go away

You took away your life
It was too hard for you
You couldn't take it anymore
So your life you threw

I still remembered that night
You cried on the phone
You didn't know what to do
You felt so alone

I rushed over to you
I knew something was wrong
You used to be so cheery
You used to be so strong

I found you on the floor
Your body lifeless and cold
A little knife by your side
A letter in your hand i started to unfold

Smothered in blood
Told the story trapped inside
The pain you felt
The tears you've cried

I held you in my arms
You looked so pale
My angel
You've turned so frail

That memory broke my heart
One year has passed
But you're still my angel
Our friendship will last

The Dark Path

The dark path
Filled with anguish and hate
Starts with a single step
Don't hesitate

Let it lead you
Meandering through the world underneath
So painful and true
From here u can never leave

Where the dead rise
Where hatred and pain show
A sight so intoxicating
There's alot more to go

Now take your blade
This is where we begin
Slash your wrists
Release the pain within

Let the crimson grow
Let your anger go wild
You have nothing to lose
Don't be afraid dear child

Release the blade
And move on in line
To enter the casket
Embroiled in vines

Now slowly creep in
And rest your soul
Finally, you'll be born
Into the darkness and cold!

The moon is full
And the time has come
The souls will arise
From their casket slums

Above their tombs
They scream in vain
Squelching their bones
To soothe their pain

Bow down now dear child
For Lucifer has occurred
Haven't you realized??
The sensation will recur

Let the Satan vex your mind
With deadly and noxious thoughts
Never try to escape
For your efforts will be naught

The dark path is where your souls will rest
For the underworld has no end
Now take your blade new souls
Onto the path we'll descend!

Time

Time can ruin, time can hurt
Time can blame you for all it's worth
Time can give you wrinkles, further your age
Time can make you regret who you obeyed

Time can show you the hardcore truth
Time can rob you of your youth
Time can break something once not broken
Time can leave your hurt heart open

Time can turn others against you
Time can make you cry with regret
Time will remind you of harsh hours spent
Time can leave you feeling already dead

Time can make the smallest things grow
Time can make a friendship show
Time can tie a special bond
Time can turn things right from wrong

Time can make you always late...
But time decides some serious fates

They told me... everything...

I've been with you since we met
I have good feelings, no regrets
But I feel like I'm the one to blame
Now that nothing is the same

I heard a lot of secrets
From our hopeful, trusted friends
And yet I feel my time with you
Is soon going to end

I never knew you were going to die
By making the biggest sacrifice
You could give it up, all of it
And come with me to paradise

Yet you choose to continue on
Your harsh, exceeding quest
That takes up your time and energy
Even if you try your best

I want you to know those last three words
That could change our thoughts of which to smile
But I'm not sure if it's the time to hear them
Although I know this will be worthwhile

I love you, that's all I need you to hear
All you have to know
I just wish you could forever stay with me
I don't want you to go

I can't believe I've been telling you all of these
Promises that will never be fulfilled
Because you are choosing to offer yourself
For the entire world's free will

I'll find a way, I know I can
I don't want you to die
Right now, just please smile...
I don't like it when you cry

If this is the end
Stop me before three other words I say
"Always....and forever"
I want us both to be brave

God.....

God, sometimes I feel you dont hear me
Or maybe you just ignore me

Sometimes I wonder if your even real
Or if its all just a fairytale

Sometimes I hear my baby cry
And sit alone and wonder why

Sometimes I wonder why you wanted him
But I see his shadow when the lights
are dim

Did you not have faith in me Lord?,To be a good mother to my son

Or did you just think he was to good to come to earth
So you gave him his wings before his life begun

There are so many questions I ask myself
And I guess I'll never figure out why

But at night when I pray to you lord
Please remind my son that I miss him deeply and I wish he never had to die~

Sleeping Scapegoat

For a time unknown to mortal man,
I have born the blame,
I have always been the one,
That is forced to take the shame

Problems caused by another,
I take upon my soul,
To rid this earth of darkness,
I will take the toll

But once your only scapegoat,
If finally dead and gone,
You will find another,
Who must take your scorn

Another one must be found,
Someone to replace me,
Another unknown person,
You wont look far to see

Die! Die! Die!
They shout out to my face,
Yet in the end I'm not dead,
Even though bound in metal case

Sleeping under the ground,
The cold earth is my home,
I will be forever doomed,
To spend eternity alone

I was once society's scapegoat,
But now my work is done,
No longer will you need the blamed,
For now you've killed your son

Need Help--
by InvisibleGurl

Sometimes people say,
I'm not like myself.
They say I've changed.
Different.

They say it in a bad way,
With a dirty 'look' on their face.
I guess they just wish,
For me to be like before.

But things are different,
From then.
Last year, I felt happy,
Felt included.

This year, the depression
Is an everyday thing.
But I keep a smile on.
Plastered there.

This year no one understands
No one knows me.
And I always feel like crying.
But I never slip my mask off.

Seems I've lost control,
Of everything.
Of my life.
And I just need help.

Where Did You Go Today Sis?

Where did you go today sis?
You never said goodbye,
You never had much time for me,
Now up high you fly,

You had no faith in god above,
I wonder if you’re right,
If you’ve gone to hell or not,
Or if you’re in the light.

How do I know where you’ve gone?
What do I believe?
All I do is lie at home,
Lie alone and grieve.

If my tears could bring you back,
You would be back home,
A thousand different ones of you,
But really I’m alone.

All alone in an empty house,
Full of all your dreams,
Full of all your memories and,
It makes me want to scream.

by Jessica

Snoflakes are falling onto the land
The sky is filled with stars above
Right at the alter is where we stand
Ready to commit our undieing love

As we gaze into eachothers eyes
Finally about to become one
Tightly holding hands we began to cry
Thinking about our life that has just begun

As reality starts to fade away
I start daydreaming about our new life
Softely I hear the Preacher say
Do you take this woman to be your wife

As I pull myself out of my dream
He slowely pulls away his hand
Softely he says 'this isnt a scheme'
And trust me baby, this wasnt my plan

Theres just something I have to say
Before you commit your life to me
I got my results back the other day
The doctors found cancer in my knee

The're not quite sure how serious yet
They said they would let me know
But its a good idea to get a casket
Because any day now I could go

Baby, Im sorry I didnt tell you this before
I just wanted to to love me
I never thought it would become a war
Yes, It was wrong I do agree

But if the quetion still stands
The answer is "I Do"
But now the cards are in your hands
As the preacher asks the quetion to you

And if you wanna throw it all away
Just remember that I love you
And slowely and softely I heard her say
I love you too, And yes "I Do"

The air only gets colder
as the tear runs down my cheek
and everything grows darker
as I only grow more weak

This is what happens
night after night
keeping in my tears
is {always} a constant fight

I just want to see your smiling face
and the twinkles in your eyes
I want your arms around my waiste
and my head up in the sky
happiness surrounding us
the love we feel is true
butterflies in my stomach
all that matters then is you

'Cause every night I go to bed
I imagine you by my side
but I roll over and see the truth
that to myself I'd lied

You arent really here
and I dont know if you ever will be
so I grab my blanket, and grasp my pillow
and close my eyes to see

To see your smiling face
the twinkles in your eyes
your arms around my waiste
my head up in the sky
happiness surrounds us
the love we feel is true
butterflies in my stomach
all that matters now is you

To have you with me for a split second
is more than I could ask
but your halfway around the world
and just hearing you is a task

So when I try to sleep at night
your what occupies my mind
I close my eyes and start to dream
and in this dream I find

The smile on your face
the twinkles in your eyes
your arms around my waiste
my head up in the sky
happiness surrounds us
the love we feel is true
butterflies in my stomach
all that matters now is you

I wake up in the morning
and all I had is lost
your no longer with me
and my heartbreak is its cost

I have to get up now though
no matter how alone I am
I have to face another day
even when I don't feel I can

Life has knocked me down
down upon my knees
I'm helpless on the ground
and I need you to set me free

{You're what keeps me happy
what keeps me alive at all
just the thought of you picks me up
when I'm about to fall}

Until that day that I can have you
I have to do my best
to keep on going through this
it is only just a test

So I stare forever forward
hoping for the day
that I can look you in the eye
to plain and simply say:

I love you my darling
with all my heart I do
and never could I ask
for anything more perfect than you

If only I could see
If only I could tell
If only I could hold
instead of whispering to myself
I love you

The stranger at the window,
Who gazes at the sky.
Searching for her freedom,
Dreaming she can fly.

Her heart sings beautifully,
I can hear it with my own.
It sings to me a song,
of why she's all alone.

He was her fearless soldier,
And her soldier, he'll remain.
As he fights the cold, hard war,
In the cold, hard rain.

But the name she remembers dear,
Is now written in stone.
And still she waits for her true love,
To make his journey home.

The stranger at her window,
Who gazes at the sky.
Searching for her freedom,
Dreaming she can fly.

When you decided to do what you did,
did it come easily?
Or was it rather a hard thing to do,
to destroy what could have been.

When you saw those people die,
did it make you cry?
Or did it make you jeer and laugh,
after sacrificing lives?

After being ignored by the media,
did it make you mad?
That your message didn't come across,
didn't go quite as planned.

I hope that it was difficult,
to make so many hurt,
For if it wasn't, I feel bad for you,
because you live with a heartless soul.

If you didn't cry, I cried double for you,
for the victims on that day.
And if you're, then so be it,
cause you will learn today.

On the streets, they protested,
completely destroyed your name.
They marched for their livelihoods,
and for their families.

Your attempt at glory failed you,
your legacy denied.
For the people of Jordan stand strong today,
against your evil tribe.

you did

I hope you have not forgotten about this contest, Ashley.