Summer

wel school is starting...soo how is every1s summer....over all or if u wnt explain every single detail of ur summer...

Over the summer I pretty much just hung out at home and went outside a lot. Well at least when it wasn't raining (which was only like a couple of days each week). And I got to go visit one of the colleges I want to apply to. It was really nice.

I pretty much wasted my summer. I stayed up all night and slept all day. Spent a whole lot of time at the mall with my best friend, a whole lot of time at my boyfriends house, and a whole lot of time wandering the neighbourhood with my group of friends.

The only beneficial thing I did this summer was think a lot about what I'm going to do after high school. Other than that, I basically threw it all away. Actually to be honest, it may not have been a very progressive summer or anything, but I had more fun than I've ever had and that's what really counts.

My summer… Was spent worrying about where I was going to live when summer ended. I preferred to stay locked in the house, and got bored of talking to my friends. I stayed on the computer most of the time, and besides worrying I also mourned not doing what I meant to and spending the summer somewhere else. I did go to the lake some days, and the fourth and fifth times I was really bored and just wanted to go home and sleep. Around July 4th I had some fun, saw a parade and talked to some random strangers. I had some fun and left a further dent in peoples lives and memories through the Internet… I constantly said I was going to do some thing, and then I’d forget or procrastinated when the day that I said I’d do it came. I missed people, I was bitter, I selfpittied, I enjoyed life, I lived, I laughed, I hoped for the best…. And as my summer draws to a close, I STILL don’t know where I’m going to live, and I still worry about it, hate it, and wish that my life went back to before my mom moved.

And so now I sit here, even bitterer as I realize that whenever I think of my past I have trouble seeing more than the bad. I did have fun, I’m not done having fun, but I can’t help but focus on the uncertainty of the future. I’m tired; I have been my whole summer… People have been connecting that to stress, and they may be right. Still I won’t sleep until its night.

It's winter here.

my summer got of to quite a slow start. not that i can remember that far back now. but the past three weeks have been beyond incredible. firstly, i got asked to house sit for a friend. i thought she was joking - she wasn't. i have a great week on my own, doing what i wanted when i wanted. i got back home, and had a letter from the college, letting me know the date i start, etc.

i hung out with friends, and experienced the new coffee shop in town [which is now one of my favourite places to be]. and a bit later than week, met an internet friend for the first time. it was great fun. and after taking a few weeks away from the pub, i finally go back, and it was the most fun i've had there in nearly a year.

then last week was such a busy, party week. i'm a little exhasted now, just thinking about them.. my mum has finally slackened the rules about 'no boys to stay over', and i had the first guy stay over in my life.

and i have more friends now that i ever have. some of my paranoia has evaporated, i'm not a nervous wreck anymore, and my confidence levels are soaring. and of course, i quit smoking this summer, which is great.

i don't imagine things getting any better, as i'm sure its not possible. in fact, i suspect a downward spiral now, to balance things out. but this summer has been pretty great, on the whole.

but my shift button doesn't work at the moment. that's slightly annoying.