Mistachs-for my mother

I know i have made many in my present and past.
but your words and the pain you cause will forever last.

i avoid you when i cant deal with your health issues and my pain any more.

it hurts to watch you shake and tremble in pain, you say your not a good mother i beg to differ.
i know having me wasn't easy.
you were 19 so i get it, and i don't make it any easier but this time i didn't not do it....

"you make me sick" your words sweep into my core.
you say i lie to you i dint i meant what i said.
my body feels like its made of led.
sometimes i wonder if it would be easier to be dead....
but i don't just for you