Behind

Behind the mask she wear everyday is a girl who doesn't want to fight,doesn't wanna keep holding on,a girl that is tried of crying every night.
She wonders if this is what life is about,is there more to this,is there more pain.She keeps everything inside no ones how she feels.Only the scars on her hands.
She has a boyfriend that she loves,and tells him everything thats on her mind.But to tell him that she wants to die, is not going to be a lie.
She writes letters everyday so that one day she leaves,they will what she is.She knows whats going on,and what hurts her is that they lie every time they say everything is OK.
Because she knows everything is falling apart,nothing is the same,nothing will go back.They wont be happy times no more,just a circle of lies that surrounds her in every way.
She seems to smile once in a while,she acts like she doesn't know but in real life she got the 411.She nice as can be no other girl can be like she.Doesn't care who you are she will the treat you that same as everybody else
She tries not look at you in the eyes,she turns away every time you try.She knows that everything will show,in her head is just a black room with the words that get to her.
She sees everything and tries to ignore but is not as easy as this words flow.She has good grades and all she asks for is the true,but the way she sees it wont come.
She wonder why does something stop her every time she tryes to end her life.It hurts her say that she wishes she shouldn't even be born.
This girl is hurt on the floor she has no type of ways to go.She kills herself or just live in hell.You may ask how do i know cause sadly that girl is me.