She: He came to see me yesterday, I was really down, he came near me and just kissed me.....
He didn't say anything, he didn't need to. for a moment, I forgot everything, I even forgot where I was (she giggles).
Me: silently listening, my mouth stays shut, but my eyes they protest and let out few tears.
She: Hello, hellooooo, are you there..
Me: trying to pull myself together.I take the phone away from my mouth so that she can't hear me.............I take a deep breath.then I bring the phone close to my mouth,
me:Yeah I'm still here, hello, hello.hellooo
(she had hung up).
So I ring her again...........it rings and rings and rings, but no reply.
I take a break to breakdown and cry.
5 mins later, I feel alot better, my heart is not as heavy as it was 5 mins ago.
So I check whether i have enough credit on my phone..............
Then I ring again.....it rings and rings and rings, and she picks up..
She: Hello
Me: (I say nothing just her hello sends me to this distant place, where I'm accompanied by her thoughts, I have a
smile on my face)
Me: Hi yeah, sorry about earlier, my phone was acting up, so how was your weekend?
She: Well as I said earlier, He came to meet me, basically we just talked, and cuddled up on my sofa, we watched that movie, do you remember that movie i watched with you at the cinema?
Me (interrupting): How can I forget that, it was the first movie we had watched together, you were wearing that necklace I had gifted you, you were wearing a red dress, you looked so beautiful in it, do you still have that necklace?
She: Oh I should go now, I'm expecting a call from somebody, so I,ll talk to you later then, It was nice talking to you.
Me: (Trying not to burst out crying) Erm, yeah ok, talk to u later.(I still don't hang up, i never do)
So She hangs up.
I burst out crying, the phone drops to the floor, saying to myself how can she pretend that as if everything is normal, how can she forget what we had, so quickly,how can she move on, just like that, its not even been a month and she just.........shaking my head, I go to bed. weeping, (thinking to myself, I'm so weak, I should be stronger, but again another episode of breaking down weeping, I say goodnight to this darkest night)
