Just friends?

Let me tell you a story, I know
It began with a girl along time ago
15 years to be correct
It was her first best friend, her first subject
he was 2, she was 1 they both had the same bond
the same excitement that went beyond
after years of growing up together
being there for each other
after farewells and broken hearts
them picking up each others parts
Always next door neighbours, only 4 houses down
she had to leave that town
different friends and school
he became bad and she became cool
They grew apart but not for very long
she saw him at a party then came on their song
they laughed and shared memories making her want to cry
and as for him looking at her made it hard for him to deny
the sparks that flew, that same old bond they knew
finally felt renew
he wanted to tell her how he felt but it was to loud
so he took her hand, pulled her away from the crowd
her heart skipped, breath token away
she felt the same but couldn't say
he smiled saying "we are better off friends anyway"
a part of her was broken
from the words she said unspoken
They both moved on , different lovers but hers and his love will always be there
they were both aware
as a couple of months fly by
another time to try
attending another party, drinks in hands
screaming people, loud music and no1 there with demands
as the their eyes met threw the crowd
they headed towards each other making the party feel quite and not so loud
finally sharing each others thoughts but not doing anything about it
they looked at each other same excitement but scared to admit
Yet still nothing happened no1 knows why ?
Those feelings are sort of hard to deny
she is having a hard time letting it all free
I know this because she is me
I love him but I'm scared to loose what we share
because hearts break in the end and if I don't have him around it will be hard to repair