Crying on your birthday

It's your birthday today
That special day
But we're not together..
I dont know what to do
Cry or smile?
Smile because u were born?
Or cry because I wish u weren't.
It's so so hard..
I guess ur celebratin ur bday
Without even thinkin of me
Ur happy wit ur friends and family
Blowing off ur candles
And making wishes
But have u thought of me?
Have u thought what i'm going through?
Or maybe u forgot about me
U forgot that i loved u, or still do...
Oh god what should i do??
I cant go on like this anymore
I cant cry everyday instead of sleeping
I cant think of u all day long
ANd wonder where r u? With whom?
And today.....it's killing me
Ur birthday...
We should've been togethere today
Celebrating ur special day
Huggin each other and kissin
Telling each other how much we mean to each other
Or just being next to each other
At least being happy, smiling
Cuz i already forgot how to smile...
I dont wanna live, i hate my life
I just wanna die and rest there smiling...