This Could've Been Forever

I needed you today
So where did you go?

I needed you to tell me everything was ok
Even if it wasn't what you wanted to say

I needed that look in your eyes
The one that always stops the tears in my eyes

But you left me here to fend for my own
So now in this crowded room I feel so alone

I used to reach for your hand in the darkness
The one you had draped over my side

I would intertwine our fingers
Lacing yours with mine

But now I reach out into the darkness
And my heart keeps searching on

I needed you so much this week
The most I have needed you in a long time

I was so broken and fragile
My soul was so weak

But you left me here to die alone
Wipe away these tears on my own

So I hope you are happy about the way you made us
When you left me here crying without you

"This could have been forever" I'll whisper into the dark
As the final sounds anyone will hear form me is the gun shot taking my life