Why?

Why do i fear him?
I can never say no
But its because i love him
That's what my heart tells me so

Why cant i be strong?
Stand up for my beliefs
Not care about everyone's feelings
Why cant all the pain just cease

Why cant i do what i want?
Do this and that if i like
He wouldn't like that
I fear for my family's life

Why does it always hurt?
The love in my heart
He's really not that bad
I knew it from the start