Another night away
Away from him <3
The boy I shouldn't love
But do anyway
I wish I didn't care
I wish I could go back
And never have opened up
I wish I had people to tell
I wish the people I told
Cared
It would be nice if
He would come back
Even though I know
Things will never be the same
Maybe it hurts
Because I wanted to
Trust him
So bad
And I did trust him
Which I knew from the beginning
Was a silly mistake
Now I won't trust
Maybe I can trust
In God
And in good-willed people
But Josh was good-willed
But he wasn't God
Maybe that's why we love
The idea of a God
Someone who doesn't make mistakes
And will never ever betray your trust
Because He knows
I wish I could get angry
I wish I hadn't gotten angry
I wish it'd be okay to be angry
Instead he says I can only be upset
But calling him a bad person
Is just too far
He played by the rules
Said everything that he
Was supposed to
So I cross lines?
My motives were pure
I tried to make it work
I wanted that
So much
We were so great together
Whywhywhywhywhy?
I don't know how
I'll be able to deal when you move on
I shouldn't have
I really shouldn't have
It's so stupid and childish
But I think
I honestly
Fell in love with you
