Losing My First Chance

I'm gunna write some lines
I guess, I don't know what else to do I know sometimes
Just ****, putting these words together
I want it to be all good make it all better
Unsure where to go really don't know what to do
Right now all I want is to be with you
No complications to avoid
Just two people loving each other
Pour themselves into each other and connect
Just runaway with me
Will you please?

I'll go wherever you desire again you are what matters to me and right now nothing else can surpass
Not taking the chance, couldn't feel anymore stupid
Life stays a mystery
Going so fast I don't want to be history
Well as long as I'm with you
I'll let life go as fast it can go or all that it matters

I've just wanted to practice what I preached
Let myself learn
Be the person to take my own advice
What is depression
I can tell you not
I mean it's just such a inexplicable topic
That doesn't mean Im in that state of depression
I guess I just feel like I need to vent
Said I love you too then hit sent
I want to be there not to press a bunch of buttons
To look at you in your beautiful eyes
And say it like I mean it

I'm a piece of **** and I admit it
I'm tired of being in my room writing this to blow it all off,
It seems life is overrated
I want to make it all right but
I just feel like I can't at this point
Some how it will
Now again I'm clueless of what to do
Lost and confused
I've gone through just as much as any of you
to be humble again I understand your situation
That you're on the other side of this
Probably going to read this if it's any good
And it should,
I mean the fact I want it to be
This is just to let emotions show
No other way I can do it
Thousands of these I may have right now this one is the most important
Literally, a dresser drawer full do I need a hobby?
Or is this it?