I Wanted to

I wanted to tell him that I loved him
That I was the one he had been waiting for as cliché as it sounds
That I was not the answers to his problems, but perhaps with me by his side, we could figure them out together.
I wanted to tell him that I would love him forever;
Without any doubts or judgements;
Without any hesitations or second guessing

I wanted to tell him that I was ready
Ready to be with him and only him
That my past lover was just that,... my past
I wanted to tell him that my heart was healed
Stitched, bandaged, and repaired
But we all know the scars always remain

I wanted to tell him this...all of this
To see his smile when he heard the news
...Oh how his eyes would light up
I wanted to tell him...I needed to tell him,
But I could not bear the thought of telling him yet another lie.