Rainbow Hues

How do I choose words to explain
The way I'm feeling now?
Rainbow hues as in my heart-
New waves caress a waking shore.
I walked as one with shadows -
Closed to all around.
No sound - aground
Impenetrable in my protective shroud.
I would not look around for fear.
I would not touch
Be touched or hear.
Controlled being. No emotion.
Shed tears within expansive oceans.
Yet still you reached and took my hand...
We danced as sunlight on warm sands.
The lights, the music took control
Unfurling eddies in my soul -
That once were buried so, so deep -
Watered by the salt of tears
And drowned before they grew to weep,
For all the erosion of solitude years.
But now I feel the warmth of light
Caress my face in pointed forms.
They reach beneath the chilly night.
And even though I shield my eyes,
I close my eyes,
And wrap myself protectively -
And try to push you from my heart,
So far away from me,
You will NOT let me be....
As on it's own my Spirit rises,
Struggling to be fee...
To feel again the breeze, the sun,
And you, a part of me.