Farewell

by Brenda   Apr 9, 2016


Will you remember me
when I'm gone?
Will you feel
sad and blue?
Will it matter
that I'm no longer
here
or was I just
a blip on the screen-
Did I leave my
mark on this world?
Or was I just another
body
taking up space-
Will you remember
me as funny,
witty, and droll
or was I just lame?
Will I fondly be remembered
or referred to
as that B****?
Did you know
I liked to doodle and write?
That I was a semi-packrat
now days they just call that
hoarding...
Did you know
I loved to read
and sing off key?
Loved all sorts of music,
talked to myself
didn't care for politics
but was deeply
patriotic-
had my heart broken
countless times
thought of ending it
a time or two-
I've been used and abused
and at times
my own worse enemy-
found the news depressing
and cried
for the hurt in this world-
missed my Dad every day
after he died
loved my kids
with all my heart
even the times they stomped
all over it-
feel regret over past wrongs
I've done to others
wishing I had been
a better person
given myself more
been a better daughter, sister, wife,
parent-
I've done stupid things,
made stupid decisions,
picked that wrong path
now and again
will people forgive me
for my wrong doings?
My mean spirited ways
at times?
I hope so...
I hope anyone who has
crossed my path
will remember me
fondly
they'll remember that
my sense of humor was
a bit off beat
and my earrings
matched what I was wearing,
that I was really a shy
person
who hated speaking
out in public
who was never really
comfortable in her own
skin...
who was a lefty and proud
of it
double jointed
and clumsy as hell...
scared to death
of sharks
and could barely
dog paddle
when I swam-
couldn't tell time
at the age of ten
and still struggle with that...
really hate math
love literature
and art
always have appreciated
a beautiful building
and what goes
into making it-
fall is my favorite
season
oddly it makes
me sad and calm
at the same time...
want to be cremated
even though the idea
freaks me out
but
it freaks me out more
to be put into the ground,
go figure?
there is so much
that makes up me
I only hope
I will be remembered
and the stories
they tell of my life
make people laugh
out loud-
miss me
love me
make my life count...

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  • 1 year ago

    by Dagmar Wilson

    Dear Brenda, this is something I often ask myself. Nobody is perfect we all make mistakes, bad choices or using poor judgement. All we can do is learn from it and do better. People who truly know you and accept you for who you are will always remember you. There are some they won't until we are gone. That's when they realize what they had. Your poems speak for itself, you are down to earth and you have a great sense of humor. Enjoyed reading. Take care

    • 1 year ago

      by Brenda

      Dagmar, thank you so much! I guess when I wrote this I was trying to forgive myself for some of the stupid things I've done and hopefully others will too. It is so very true of how much we realize what we've had after it's gone. Life is so very short and we need to live it to the fullest while we are here. Thank you for thinking me funny-my husband laughs at my jokes but I think he kind of has to-we do sleep in the same bed-lol! Take care-Brenda

  • 1 year ago

    by Em

    Brenda,
    This is breath-taking. I like the format as it takes the reader on the journey of your life so far and tells us about you.
    You would like to be remembered for being witty and I think with this many people will as you seem like a very down to earth lady.

    Keep going, Em

    • 1 year ago

      by Brenda

      Em, thank you so much! I really appreciate your kind words. I like to think of myself as being pretty down to earth-nothing fancy. I'm happy with the dollar menu at McDonalds more than some fancy 5 star place. Thank you thinking of me as being witty, that really means a lot! Hugs! Brenda

  • 1 year ago

    by Milly Hayward

    Hi Brenda
    An interesting poem portraying you as a person your hopes and fears. The way it wound on down the page made me feel like I was travelling on a journey of discovery.
    Loved it
    Milly x

    • 1 year ago

      by Brenda

      Thank you Milly! You always wonder (well I do because I'm kind of weird like that-lol) what people will remember you by after you are gone. I mean it won't really matter to you obviously because you are no longer there but you wonder what kind of mark you made on this world. So many people do so many awesome meaningful things with their lives and are celebrated as such. Other people have dedicated their lives for others and nobody but a handful even know who they are. Others have overcome such horrendous hardships and lived their lives in relative obscurity and no one even knows what they had to do to survive. This was my way of telling who and what I am, nothing fancy, with fears, phobias, life and love. Thank you again! Take care-Brenda

  • 1 year ago

    by - Mr. Darcy

    Hello Brenda,

    The format of a long narrow trail illustrates a life pathway, your journey so far. The 'goodbye ' makes it sound final, but I think it's more like the end of a chapter. I'm so looking forward to the next instalment .

    Seriously, this is a wonderful way of telling us who you are.

    Well done.

    Michael

    • 1 year ago

      by Brenda

      Michael, thank you so much! Yeah, the title kind of freaked my kids out-lol. This is me in all my weirdness, life has such an interesting road we get to travel,I'm looking forward to my next chapter too. Thank you again! Take care-Brenda