I See

by Jenny Paradise   Aug 13, 2017


Sometimes when I look into your eyes I see a lost soul,
Someone who's broken and needs to be made whole,

I see the lies you've been told,
All of the pain that you hold,

The broken promises and all the scars inside,
How sometimes you just wanna run and hide

You let each and every bad situation you've had,
Follow you to every relationship and it makes it turn bad,

It's not your fault and I know you can't help it,
It just happens so hurt is all you get,

When I look in your eyes, I see someone who's been mistreated,
Needing to find that one who makes his life completed,

I see all of the beatings, the bruises, and lumps,
The times you've felt low and down in the dumps,

In your eyes I can see the little boy who just wanted a fathers love,
Not to get yelled at and always a push and shove,

All the anger issues you fight day by day,
Trying not to snap cause its not the only way,

When I look into your eyes I see a lot of hate in you,
For the ones who did you wrong leaving your heart black and blue,

I see a person who not many can understand why he is the way he is,
What he's been through or felt, they can guess but it's a hit or miss,

I can see the tears you've cried and the prayers you've prayed,
The neglect you've went through and still you stayed,

In your eyes I see you still standing and giving it your all even if it's your last,
Even when you think you'll never beat the demons from your past,

I see someone who is waiting to snap and let it all out,
But is also afraid of what he'll do cause it'll be more than just shout,

I see that sweet little boy,
Who was scared and played with like a toy,

Who was beaten by a man who was suppose to be a father,
But turned into a monster making you feel you was a bother,

In your eyes I see all the times you begged it to stop,
But all you felt on your face was a pop,

I can see that that you want to tell me about your past and what all happened to you,
But you're not ready and I can wait as long as you need me to,

When I look into your eyes I see fire,
All the things your heart desires,

I see all the lonely nights,
All the pointless fights,

The heartbreak, the pain,
Trying your best and getting no gain,

But here's something YOU should see,
That you'll never have to worry about your past with me,

I'm here to show you love,
And be your gift from up above,

I'll make you happy you made it through,
I'll stick by you whenever your feeling blue,

I'm here to love you and stay for a while,
Cause all I wanna do is make you smile,

When I look into your eyes I see a man who's passion is so true,
In your eyes I can see the real you,

The sweet , loving, and caring guy who,
Never let his past change him after what he went through,

But when I look in my heart at something so true,
Guess what I see? I see only you.

Jenny Lynn
6-11-16

Dedicated To: Shelby Padgett

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  • 3 months ago

    by Ben Pickard

    A very well written piece and well rhymed throughout.
    All the best,
    Ben

  • 4 months ago

    by Milo

    I can see the tears you've cried and the prayers you've prayed,
    The neglect you've went through and still you stayed,

    By far one of the most powerful imagery I've seen this week and it touches something very deep in me. I grew up in foster care and what I have seen throughout the years is how formidable each kid was. We all had trust issues from a plethora of reasons. We protect ourselves not only just from the pain or the suffering. We didn't counter the blows or fight back or yelled for help by acting out to just lessened the pain or the anger or the sadness. Foster kids and non foster kids who experienced trauma fight bc they are afraid people will see right through them: people will see what keeps them pushing forward. And there are so many reasons to push forward, but I believe the deepest and most vulnerable reason is hope.

    I'm sure there is a kid somewhere in the system looking out his or her window at the stars above. The same kid who relived the abuse again and again in their head and people will wonder what makes him or her formidable. The caseworkers will say bc that kid is smart or that kid knows right from wrong, bc he loves his life etc.

    The stars above painted in his or her heart reflects the hope beyond measure, that one day in the future, he can know what peace and love feels like. And if someone can walk into his or her life and show them the way, don't be surprise they have to be dragged to peace or love. We simply don't trust that anyone knows what it means to love us back. Most likely they never experienced it before. We only have seen it shine down on us from the stars only in the most darkest, saddest and loneliest moments in our lives; the only time we absolutely need to look up and find hope to survive another day in whatever rabbit hole they are in.

    Hope in the abused does not usually come from people. You'll find it more in the little girls doll that's been there at her side through the long painful nights. You'll find the infinite hope when the kid plays the piano and hear it resonate from the strokes of the chords. Hope in the form of memories of stars and mountains and lakes and forests wishing we are there at the finish line from this madness. In inanimate objects and animals that were there to witness the vulnerability of the hopes and dreams he or she carries. He or she will protect those moments with their lives.

    And for me, to try to envision a moment when you can meet someone and finally trust and believe in the person, the same person that can see right through you, is in itself a powerful imagery that is beyond words or emotion. It's hope that you are the one to believe in peace and love the same way he or she does, and take our hand and help us find it. That's real. That's fcuking beautiful.

    Thank you.

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