Depression

My life has spiraled down into the abyss into the unknown, I feel like no-ones there during all my pain. I have nothing left to gain. I struggle through the days,with no-one at my side, to find some worth, to save a little pride. But all my days are dark, stormy, cold and gray and emptiness keeps growing as I slowly fade away. I have no effort left to put into this life. Days of endless struggle more hopeful pills today, trying to appear 'normal' in some sort of way. It seems the struggle is always here with me, and I wouldn't be here now if guilt would leave me be. Always on a roller coaster, not much consistency I'm nothing if I'm not up or down I'm nothing if just 'me' each day I live the pain consumes what little sanity I have bloomed like walking into a cloud of fog falling down, sinking into the smog life seems grim, I think on a whim intrest lost in everything I do but what a life, who really knew? Depressed to a fault, all I see death just seems like the only way for me. A waste of time I feel I am I try and I try to ease the pain a fallen effort with no gain, thoughts begin to eat away, make a me want to end it today. So I write this all as I fall from my grace down to this place, some barren waste I know not how much longer I will last but all I can do, is pray that this will all just pass...