What If?

I met him quite by chance you know
On a beautiful warm summer's eve
I'd only popped into that bar for a mo
As my bladder I had to relieve

He came through the door as I tried to leave
And I caused him to spill his drink
He said I could make it up to him
With a knowing look and a wink

Well that was the start of our great love
With not a single day of worry
Until today when it all went wrong
Let me tell you the sorry story ...

He whispered "stay a little longer,
Don't rush away so fast"
He made me late for work today
Kissed me like it was our last

So I stayed at my desk doing extra
Making up for the time I'd lost
I took a later train than normal
Never knowing what it would cost

I found a seat, but all too late
I noticed the bag stashed beneath
I heard the ticking of the bomb
And of my heart with its last beat

That instant my mind travelled backwards
To how I had ended up here
At what point had I made the choice
That would cost me my life so dear?

What if I hadn't met him that day?
What if he hadn't made me late?
What if this baby hadn't made me sit down?
What if I hadn't been dealt this fate ...?