All alone.

These walls hold me. They contain me. They give me shelter and protect me from the cruel world outside that I don't want to be apart of anymore. But these walls protect the world from me as well. For a person that believes in what is right and kindness my world is suddenly a place full of people that seem cruel, evil and wish to upset my yin-yang outlook of life. They take advantage, they hurt my children, they take my children and destroy my good nature. Karma seems to have failed, my good nature is vanishing and in its place anger is growing. I am alone. This world has wronged me. This world has destroyed me and destroyed the lives of my children. I am consumed, i am alone and I will become karma. The system that allows my children to be hurt at the hands of a monster, who beats them, who locks them in a room and shows them no love and... I am so alone in a world that I no longer want to be apart of. And in my loneliness love has gone and has been replaced by anger which has consumed me. My children are alone, and I have to be alone. If i cannot learn to be alone then my children will always be alone. If my need to deliver karma outside of these walls that contain me prevail, then I will burn this world down and from its ashes i will still be alone. My children will still be alone. For now we have to be alone otherwise we will always be alone.

For my boys Lincoln and Hudson, im sorry that this world and I have failed you, but if my anger for karma gets the better of me then we will always be alone without each other. One day we will be reunited and in place of all my anger love will return and i believe that the balance of Karma will be restored.