Scars never die

The wounds you covered me with , decorated my heart with an infinite number of memories that haunt me till this very day. And I thought by now I’d be over this tide but every time I tried to swim, the waves crushed my numb bones and left me sinking under the oceans again.
And darling I promise I meant it when I said I wanted you happy, I just didn’t want you happier than me.
The only thing that kept hope in heart was the smile I drew on the faces of my friends. But that hope started to fade away as I started to miss them one by one, until they all left ahead. But maybe that’s my luck and maybe I’m not meant to be happy and that’s okay because at least I still have some oxygen in my lungs. But again what’s the point when all I do is live so I can die again the next day.