It sux to be me

Hey u guys... don't u think its kinda stupid that wen u want something so bad... that's wen everything falls apart?? isn't it kinda dumb that wen u do get what u want... something else comes in the way of it and then wen u lose it... you just cant help missing it??? and wen you're happy with the way things are... you're suddenly not that happy anymore in just a blink of an eye.... it sucks don't u think?? that wen u have something you've been keeping inside... and you don't want anyone to know bout it because u think it would ruin everything if you tell someone.... something else happens and you just start wishing that u DID tell someone... that hopefully you had the guts to tell him or her how you really feel... because one day they just fade away like cotton candy in your mouth.... heh.. i know thats not a very good example because wen cotton candy fades... u actually get something out out of it... but wen a certain someone fades away from you.... u got nothing left... and all you can do is sit in the corner and cry.... I've always thought i was happy... but am i happy?? think bout it... i haven't had anyone by my side in almost a year now... and I've been wanting a certain someone for more or less than half a year... and it sucks.... that I'm never gonna get them.... it sucks that wen i finally get over someone... someone else comes along and you think you're happy that u finally got over someone else but then all of a sudden you just want to get over the one you like now.... maybe... just maybe... you even love them... and wanna be with them... but you know in your heart that you never will.... because they're already happy.. and you're afraid that if you walk into their life.... they wont be happy anymore... you just want that person to be happy... and wen they are... you wish you can be happy for them but you've felt so little all along.... you've felt like you wanna be the one to make them happy... but you just cant be their special someone... and it just sucks don't you think??? well.... i don't know if the person I'm talking bout is gonna read this but hopefully....... hopefully they know its about them.... and hopefully they know i love them... very very much..