If only u knew

If only you knew, the reason that i left you was because i couldn't bear the pain anymore.
i was bleeding every time you told me that you were dying inside. And i silently died with you too

If only you knew that i wanted you to go away from my life was because you brought more pain than joy. Darkness was closing on me and i was suffocating..

If only you knew that after telling you to leave me alone how broken i was, how tormented i felt leaving you alone and how scared i was to whisper your name..

But gradually the fear faded. I realized that i really liked you even if you broke my heart...

If only you know that i still miss you my dear..But by now you have probably forgotten me..
You told me how Happy you were with the one you love last time..

If only you knew that i am lost now. The pain is still here with a deep arching for the you gave me.

All this you will never know as i have locked these feelings in a corner of my mind, with your memories..thats where you are.

You will never know how cold i have become and how lonely i am.