Marriage

Im too scared to pull the trigger,
Im too scared to cut the knife,
I watch while people laugh and snigger,
while im thinking about taking my life.

I dont think its funny,
im not going to laugh
i havnt got any money
and my heart was torn in half

Why do you all smile,
when i say ill be gone for a while?
Why do you just turn away,
and act asif ill still be here on monday

I try to forget this all,
about how you watched me fall,
and didnt do a thing,
but it\'s hard, watching you put on that golden ring.

I tried to tell you i dont like him
I tried to tell you he does not care
but you just turned and said \"dont you dare\"
I want you to leave him,
I want it to be just you and me,
theres still time, we could still flee

But you dont care,
so I take the knife,
stab my arm,
and do a lot more harm,
this is getting easy.

my clothes are now drenched in blood
I smile at the result
and think \"this is all your fault\"

So here i lay,
all night, untill day,
when you shall find me,
and finally see,
how your marriage,
affected me.