I try not to cry...

I try not to cry
but it hurts
i keep it all inside
and it only gets worse
they say i should be happy
and laugh once and a while
but all i ask is how
when all ithink about is your smile
why do i feel this way
what does this all mean
is it reall
that things arent what they seem
am i over reacting
or are these feelings right
this is so confusing
and my pain keeps me up at night
i think i need help
cuz i dont know what to do
its just so hard knowing
the person whos breaking me is you