The hole in my heart

Sometimes i miss you so much
and when i think about all the
things i should have said to you my heart drops

Almost all of my regrets
are surrounding you
i regret not appreciating you
not seeing how much i was hurting you

right now i feel the hole in my heart
where your memories are
its like someone stabbed me
and now i'm just a ghost

a ghost of who i used to be
and wanting so desprately
to just be in your arms again
just to feel alive and whole again

i so longingly want to look up
at one of my soccer games
and see you standing there
...smilling

The beating of my heart hurts
it hurts to talk
it hurts to breathe
maybe i should stop it all