The night I lost everything...

Mom

I helped you change all of them
every lock in the house
to keep it on lockdown
from your horrible spouse

It wasn't really who he was
it was all just an act
he was filled with lies and deceit
but it all became fact

He pretended he loved us
pretended to care
whenever we needed him
he always was there

For months he was shouting
so we kicked him out
screaming, yelling, getting in your face
what's that all about

I'm glad you didn't take his sh*t
just told him to hit the road
but we didn't know he was psycho
he switched into crazy mode

That night I felt sick
and came home real early
you were all worried
and acted all motherly

I said I was fine
and you went to bed
but something was bugging me
was it all in my head?

I got on the internet
and talked to some friends
I kept hearing noises
it didn't make sense

When I heard screaming
I reached for the phone
but it had been disconnected
there wasn't a tone

I picked up my cell phone
and dialed 9 1 1
when somebody answered
I gave the 4 1 1

I ran out of my room
I saw he was coming
ran into the bathroom
my thought process numbing

I heard him banging
I tried to stay calm
but if he's right outside
then where is my mom?

I haven't heard anything from her
since those terrible screams
everything was silent
I wonder what that means

He finally stopped banging
and trying to enter
I took a few seconds
to settle and center

As I opened the door
he just wasn't there
but I smelled an odor
there's smoke in the air

I ran into my mom's room
too see if she was alright
but she wasn't in there
just him and a big knife

It was stuck in his chest
with his hand firmly placed
I'll never forget
the look on his face

As I ran down the hallway
right for the stairs
It was filled with smoke
I was gasping for air

I ran to a window
and kicked it right out
if I jump out this window
I'll hurt something no doubt

I heard my mom calling
I looked at the ground
the front gate was locked
she had to go around

As I climbed down a ladder
in awesome disbelief
my mom had made it out
a big sigh of relief

But as I approached her
I couldn't believe it
how could any sane person
even THINK of doing this sh*t

She said it would be alright
everything is replaceable
I stopped and considered
she must be unbreakable

She was so badly burned
from her head to her toes
her face was so charred
her cheeks, ears, and nose

She was in such shock
she didn't have a clue
All she could say was
"I had to find you"

We watched in dismay
as the house burned to the ground
just sitting and staring
not even a sound

The ambulance came
and took her away
off to the hospital
where she would stay

They put her to sleep
so she couldn't feel pain
I sat in the waiting room
so many thoughts in my brain

They said there was slim chance
she'd live through the night
but I knew my mom
she'd put up a fight

The next night as I slept
I was woken with urgency
the phone suddenly rang
"Come quick, it's an emergency!"

On the way to the hospital
my stomach felt strange
and I knew at that moment
that things had just changed

When I arrived at the hospital
I saw my mom's friend
she gave me a sad look
and offered her hand

I cried on her shoulder
like never before
How could this happen?
Was I living a horror?

My whole life was destroyed
in one big huge flame
and all of this hatred
that as*hole to blame

She was liked by so many
she was active in church
but god didn't save her
he saved my as* first

Why would he do this?
nobody knows
it's too late to change it
that's just how it goes

A few weeks it took me
to get back on my feet
I went back to school
and started to eat

I graduated high school
had to go the extra length
I did it for my mom
and all of her strength

Her voice and her wisdom
I no longer hear
but I still remember her
year after year

We will always remember you. You are greatly missed...