My Father

He finally called
Its been 13 years since Ive seen or talked to him
He didnt care about me
He cared about the alcohol
And now he suddenly wants back in my life
I dont know if I can give him a second chance
I mean what if he just leaves me again
I dont know if I can go through that again
I love him so much
But at the same time I hate him so much
He is nothing to me now
He is what I call a father that I never had