To My Mom

I see the way you look at him
And wondering if you see
That every glance you make towards him
Is one less made toward me
It�s ok though I don�t blame you
This wasn�t your intention
But seeing the way you look at him
Makes me feel so much tension
I love you and I love him too
So please don�t get me wrong
But now everything that I do
Is always something wrong
Nothing I can say or do
Even when I�m joking
Seems to be ok with you
With every word I�m choking
Trying to hold back the tears
So that you can�t see my pain
Bleeding out all of my worst fears
Without going insane
I�m sorry I�m not your little angel
Even though you wish that I were
My life is beginning to dangle
On a string and everything�s a blur
My heart goes cold just watching you
Seeing your love towards him
There�s so much I would like to say or do
But I can�t because I would hurt them
By them I mean everyone
That sits there looking so glad
That you finally have your precious son
The one you never had
Well I am sick of all this pain
And now I am finally gone
I feel like I�m standing in the rain
With just a T-shirt on
With every glance you make towards him
That�s one less made towards me
My heart and soul are collapsing in
But I guess this is how it will be
I love you an awful lot
And I know I always will
Though it seems you love him more
I can�t help but love you still